vvvvvvvThe
watchman waves. The garage door
stutters open. It’s dark
inside, dark. Grope for a switch.
vvvvvvv‘Where
are you going?’ We’re
going somewhere not dark,
vvvvvvvsomewhere
clear and sunlit,
where the frank wind touches
our faces. The watchman
vvvvvvvbrushes
open the gate by habit.
vvvvvvvLeaves—wrinkled,
yellow tongues—pastiche
the driveway by habit. When
you turn the key, the car
vvvvvvvthrobs,
and there’s a sharp, bitter
aura of petrol.
vvvvvvvThen
light a cigarette. A point glows
vvvvvvvlike
an ache for the past. When was
I last with you in this car,
vvvvvvvin
this closed space?
Outside, wind and dust glaze
the windows. Young, I loved
vvvvthat
smell
vvvvvof
fuel washing the car-intestine,
its suddenness,
vvvvvvvits
spontaneous personality.
I grew intimate with its bitter
exactness. In every derelict
vvvvvservice
station, or among ruined despondent
engines,
vvvvvvvor
bleary pools in dumps
vvvvvvvvvvvvvvwith
rainbows
vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvin
their eyes,
I inspired that fragrance. It
was everywhere, it was
vvvvvvva
wise spirit, a timeless,
vvvvvvvunromantic,
amor mundi spirit,
vvvvvvvhaunting
the dark cogs and the pistons
vvvvvvvlike
despair, or love,
or one of those emotions I wouldn’t
experience with clarity
vvvvvvvuntil
long after,
vvvvvvvand
not even then.
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